gloomy mood today.
anyone out there to cheer me up :(
i wish there's just someone there willing to lend me a listening ear.

i have a stupid time in maple waiting for about 10mins for the so-called buyer
someone is at home irritating the hell out of me
&& i just cant find some time for myself so that i can be happy.

this is a blog entry for you:

please, can you just do me a favour and stop asking me stupid questions.
i can stand answering some.
if it's just asked once a day.
but dont just keep on asking and asking without taking any actions.

yesyes, people might say i am not cherishing what i have..u as a father.
but someone, will u please stand in my shoes and think.
i dont even think i have what is called a "fatherly-love" ever since i know things.
and then everything just changed when my mum called for a divorce.
u started to show concern for me.
do note that i am using "show"
Eg. what's the use of asking me if i ate already,
when i say i haven eat, u say very good.
when i say i eat already, u ask me if u need to takeaway food from downstairs for me.
under these circumstances, do u really think i can stand not shouting at you?

i do think that i grow until this old is somehow, due to you.
because you are the breadwinner of the house.
but just dont try asking me to smile at you and talk to u nicely.
i cant do it.

sincerely, i really do not know how to entertain ur fatherly-love.
it's just tiring me out.
just leave me alone, will you.
do u just have to make it until i dont want to come home at all.
new past